Because the year is coming to a close, I thought I would revisit this post from July🤭 about my theme for next year. I have certainly been thinking a lot about doing things in my time and not feeling rushed or behind for a whole. But that confidence is always fleeting when the world applies its own pressure. Anyway, I hope these thoughts encourage you in your path.
I’ve been thinking on this for the past two days and figured it should be my theme for next year (pretty ballsy, right? Planning for next year when I have no guarantee that I will see the end of this one but…hope!)
For a full year now, I’ve felt overwhelmingly as though am on ‘Pause’. And held back by that unfounded fear of being left behind. By who you ask?…the classmates. There is this unspoken agreement once you learn the people you study with that you must keep in step together. That if by an age that they shall at a given time agree upon you haven’t achieved certain things, you are ‘behind’ and the door is closing on that opportunity.
There’s that take on things…and the feeling that comes along with it. That in comparison to ‘the squad’ you are failing. And not where you are supposed to be!!!
The book ‘The Time Keeper’ by Mitch Albom echoes that notion that comes once in a while of how there is no late or early there is just the right time. Its harder to grasp when it feels like you are falling farther behind in the race of life. It starts to sound like some comforting cliché.
Where am I going with this? Where indeed. I’m not so sure about it. But I recently read the line ‘Let not our longing slay the appetite for living‘. Let us not get so married to working against a given timeline that we forget the joys of daily living.
There are definitely things we aim for, things we hope to have, let’s have the maturity to not fall apart when they are a little delayed. Or simply put, the knowledge that you have your own path and as winding and long as it may seem, it’s still beautiful in its own way. So it contains a few more bumps and detours, holdups and U-turns than most people around you (apparently), it probably has some fast lanes and good views along the way too.
You can tell am still making up my thoughts on this as I go along, can’t you? Hopefully by the time the new year rolls around I’ll have wrapped my head in taking my journey with the confidence and realisation that I’m my own competition, striving to be a better me than I was yesterday. To take my eyes off everyone’s timeline and appreciate my own!
I do hope at least one thing in these winding thoughts struck a chord. Feel free to let me know in the comments.