Creatives: Chasing Purpose

Let’s start this off with a game of Would you rather?

Would you rather die with fulfilled potential or die with a pot of gold? Pots if you would rather๐Ÿ˜‰.

Depending on what my account balance says, I can teeter between the two as well. And don’t get me wrong, you can have both. Why shouldn’t purpose be followed up with all the money and why shouldn’t money ease the realisation of purpose. Whichever you get first, they can totally blend in.

But I wonder, is this the question that propels career shifts? Where the scales have been weighed and priorities laid through experience.

I know I had my own doubts when I decided I wanted to focus on my writing more than the law degree. (For now. Who knows what the future holds.) There were two arguments against this move – that there is not as much money in such fields as the traditional courses (you probably know the ones and I’ll get to this in a later post this week) and that I would feel out of place in a room of people with seemingly more stable jobs. People who could accompany what they do with a title and merge it permanently to their names.

There is that space between the dream and its manifestation. Its probably called frustration. And some days it feels like I am still there. Waking up and wondering how to best shut off this desire to stand apart, to go after something that seems unattainable. Isn’t it easier to do what everyone else has done? There you already have the road map, you are not being blindsided by detours and dead-ends. Or nursing a thousand doubts with every step.

It’s true I didn’t enjoy the legal setting of it all (though you may not tell that from the legal dramas and novels I always gravitate too). I mean I can see the purpose of the law and how hard it strives for justice when it’s not busy being blind and rigid. But you get to know that there are somethings you can enjoy from a distance without muddying your hands…or head…or heart…

One of the conversations I remember most in that time of uncertainty, especially with sticking my foot out into the writing world was with my cousin on working for purpose.

He knew a place I could go to and make real quick money. It was nothing I was interested in but heck, money is money and doesn’t know much about your personal interests. I told him I would rather (see the running theme here) keep trying to find something I could contribute positively to. Something that aligned with my ambitions and the dreams that keep me awake at night.

It didn’t make sense then. Sometimes it barely makes sense now. Honestly, does purpose feed you and get you the new heels you’ve been eyeing?!

But I had context. I had just come out of a degree that seemed to have taken more from me than it added and I wasn’t ready to jump into something else like that with my eyes wide open.

And honestly aren’t we all just looking for purpose! (And I know we all do that in our own ways).

To know that what we are doing means something deeply to us and would contribute greatly to our desired field.

To believe that we are not holding space somewhere till something better or someone better comes along but we look forward to daily work because we see ourselves in it. Because it adds meaning to out existence and we add to its…whatever. Where we are happy to be alive and every day is the stuff of dreams we can talk about till the cows come home.

To go to sleep with a deep sense of accomplishment. Not simply going through the rat race.

To look back and know that you went boldly in the direction of your dreams, to trust that the passions of your heart are not simply misplaced thoughts that took a stop on their way to someone who could give them justice.

I hope whatever it is your hands find to do (legal and ethical๐Ÿ˜), you do it with the conviction that it is what you are meant to do in that moment of time.

Today kicks off the start of Afrobloggers WinterABC2021 Challenge – 22 days of daily blogging๐Ÿ˜ช. Type in the hash tag and read several unique thoughts on the subject. See you tomorrow. Hopefully.

24 thoughts on “Creatives: Chasing Purpose

    1. Maybe that is the purpose ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿฟโ€โ™€๏ธ. But sometimes the search is really long. I would certainly appreciate a the cheat codes even though that would take from the journey.
      Thank you for reading and commenting :).

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    1. There truly is, Lebogang! And it’s always interesting to see how much more you can get out of yourself. The goal is certainly to finish the race empty-handed. Thank you so much for reading and commenting :).

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    1. Ooh… Empty is the word๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿฟ. Me too. Me too!! ๐Ÿ˜… Hopefully when I’m empty I won’t be stuck in that strange place between the dream and manifestation. Thank you for reading and commenting :).

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  1. “There is that space between the dream and its manifestation.ย Its probably called frustration.” This is funny but makes sense. Don’t give up on your dream, keep moving regardless…

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    1. ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜… At least it makes sense.
      Thank you for the encouragement ๐Ÿ˜Š. I won’t give up. Feel like I moved off the shore so long ago, the only way is forward.
      Thank you for reading and commenting :). I truly appreciate it.

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  2. Pots for me. I think I have low key decided to start this journey and am at the dream stage. But can’t fully acknowledge because of the uncertainty that comes with. But pots it is. If I die I die. And we have to see you tomorrow. Some of us may manifest because of your thoughts by the end of the challenge. Happy writing.

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    1. ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ Me too. With the pots. If I could own gold mines to endlessly supply me even better. Well done on taking the step to do this. It takes courage to stare that t uncertainty down every day and say you are doing this regardless.
      Tomorrow it is๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜….
      Thank you for dropping by. And reading. And commenting๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š

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  3. This was such a lovely read.
    “There is that space between the dream and its manifestation. Its probably called frustration.” I cannot agree more ๐Ÿ˜‚

    This was interesting to me because up until the last minute, I wanted to study law. When I was approaching uni time, I shadowed some lawyers for a week and decided against. Maybe at another point in time. However, I still read lots of crime books and listen to lots of true crime investigation podcasts ๐Ÿ˜‚

    You expressed this really well. Enjoyed reading this.

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    1. Thank you, Wonani. I’m glad you enjoyed it.
      Law wasn’t my first choice, to be honest. ๐Ÿ˜’ Can’t even tell you how I got into it. But at least you had the fore wisdom to shadow them. I guess I would also have known for sure before I went into it.
      Ooh, crime books are wonderful. I like trying to figure it all out before I get to the end. Great mental exercise๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚
      Thank you so much for reading and commenting :).

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  4. I refuse to die with a pot of gold!
    The world must hear me so I’ll keep telling my story until I have unleashed all that lies within me.
    Lovely piece!

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    1. That’s certainly the spirit, Onyinye. A reader in the comments has written it as ’empty’ and that’s certainly the aim. To know you came and did your best.
      Thank you so much for reading and commenting :).

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