We are all making it up as we go along.

Are we really?

I’m guessing you see that and there is someone who pops in your mind who just seems to have it all figured out. There is no way they are making it up.

Probably bursts holes in your belief of ‘my steps have been ordered’. Especially when you can’t see the order of your steps. I can’t see the order to my steps. Most days. At this rate, it could very well be every day. I read Isaiah 26 this morning. And verse 7 is ‘The path of the righteous is level, O upright One, you make the way of the righteous smooth.’

It got me thinking.

Then I overthought everything and ended up in my feelings.

And when I get to feeling like this I wonder if I’m going so hard after the wrong things or not putting in enough work and time. Maybe there is something more I can do to shift the course in my favour, get some smooth roads on this bumpy ride. Have I exhausted all the options?

I get to listening to all those people who are in a place where they like where there are at and I wonder about their secrets. How do they get there? Now, I know and I know and I know, that I usually come to their stories after they’ve wrestled with their own doubts and I’m seeing the picture from the other end.

And I’m living through the messes of my own story.

I listened to an interview, a content creator who had a major shift, from law to art and media. This story is so close to my own shift. Law to…whatever it is I’m doing. And she is doing well, if I dare say so myself. What I wouldn’t give for certainty! For instructions on this life like they give for baking. Measure out a teaspoon of education, add to it a cup of passion, let it rise for 15 minutes…heat it with experience for one hot minute and voila, we’ve got something you can enjoy. But certainty is the opposite of faith, or so I’ve heard.

So, I’m making it up as I go along.

Ok, I know it’s been a while. How have you guys been? How was May? Are you wrestling with your own doubts? Are you making things up as you go? Are you seeing the order in your own steps?

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