Homeward – The Rekindling

We can practically see the finishing line now – on WinterABC23. Have you done all the reading to your heart’s content? Seen yourself in some of these stories? Well, here’s Homeward.

Homeward by Benjamin William Hastings (Benjamin William Hastings Album)

Somewhere in between the promise and the place it comes to pass

I found Hastings album unnervingly honest. Where he got real with the struggles of this Christian journey that some people seem so quick to gloss over.

Sometimes you don’t get a flame the first time you strike a match.

And I think most of life has an element of waiting to it. You conceive this dream that’s bigger than life and realise it might not happen at the snap of a finger.

This place in between can be cold and uncomfortable. Test all your limits and have you questioning almost everything you’ve known about yourself – what you think you heard, what you expected, what you were striving for…and the rest.

So how do you sit with the wait?

Cause what I learnt from waiting is waiting never lasts

Good things take time.

If you’ve lived long enough, this thought has been repeated to you often.

Rekindling takes time.

Pictures taken from Pixabay and Unsplash

What happens when the wait seems to drag on forever? When you feel like you were ready yesterday and somehow still got overlooked?

It’s times like this that necessitate calling the vision to mind. Repeatedly. Often. Continuously. (easier said than done – I know. I feel always more inclined to give up and get a smaller achievable goal).

And I don’t know the timing

I like the line ‘and while I’m waiting, I’m not waiting’.

Simply put, enjoy the interlude but don’t set up camp there. Put in the work. Do it anyway even though there is no ovation yet.

Because you don’t know the timing.

And when it happens, you don’t want to look back with regret. That you didn’t utilize what you had when you had it. If you look hard enough, you can find something good about the wait. ‘Though it tarries, wait for it’.

Hold out for that dream job, that #relationshipgoals, the elite squad or the climax of your creativity. Be honest with yourself about what you really want.

I’ve learnt faith isn’t fearless it’s just trusting when you fear the most

Being honest with yourself means coming face to face with your fears. So that you can slay them like the warrior you are 😏.

What if they hate your music? What if they tear down your writing? What if they tell you this thought you circle around with, that you are not enough.

That’s when you trust what was formed in the waiting. That you are not defined by outside opinions. That if you like your creation, then you champion it.

That even this (whatever this is) will pass.

I’ll hang on every word You ever said

For I know You’re faithful

And I’m still waiting on a wealth of promises

But I know You’re able